Everyone in the world right now has had their world turned upside down!! As a mother who is used to running day and night between work, sports, school, plays, and parties, this is a huge change!
For the most part, I am a planner. I know what’s going on, who’s going where and when. I never in a million years would have imagined our world would be shut down with an unknown end date… no one knows right now.
I feel completely out of control. As a control freak, I feel as if I’m spiraling out of control. I don’t know if I’m coming or going. I feel stuck, like I can’t move.
When my kids school was closed and the salon I work at had to close, I had a million things run through my head!! “I will do all the things I never have time for!” And homeschooling my kids, I have always wanted to do that! Instead, I am over here, full of fear, anxiety, trying to figure out my kids’ school work, feeling so unorganized. I feel like I don’t know which end is up, and the days fly by, I’m living on coffee, cookies and wine!!
I see in my social media feeds how so many people are organized with their kids’ school day planned out, everything marked with sticky notes and highlighted. Me? I have papers everywhere, trying to keep each kids’ things together and get them sent to the teachers.
I’m telling you all this so that you know it’s ok. The world is upside down right now, and it’s ok if you are too. Don’t compare yourself to someone on your social media feed, don’t beat yourself up if there are toys all over, laundry needs to be done, and you didn’t get to clean out those closets!!
Y’all don’t have to feel guilty because we are watching people who are portraying everything to be perfect. I’m guilty of this, of feeling like a failure these last few weeks. I have no income coming in right now, and I’m not doing the projects that I thought I would.
Be easy on yourself!! Enjoy this time because, God willing, we will never have this happen again. Go for a walk, enjoy nature, breathe in the fresh air, and binge watch Tiger King. You are doing amazing mamas! Lock yourself in your closet to get away for a few minutes, take in a few deep breaths, and remember, tomorrow is a new day. Today you have done enough.
And from one mama to another…. you are enough.